Wednesday, February 08, 2012

Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans

Moving to Phoenix has been an interesting adventure. It has been wonderful and horrible. But it has been everything I have needed it to be.

I went to institute tonight. We talked about a lot of things. One of which was having faith and following God's plan for each of us. When the opportunity to move to Phoenix came up it felt so good and so right. I knew it was the right thing for me. But it has been far from flowers and butterflies since I moved. I have some wonderful friends here and love the weather. Really, I love Phoenix. But I would be lying if I didn't say it has been excruciatingly difficult. Like, curl up in a ball and cry until there are no more tears. Then cry some more. And some more.

So anyway. I'm sort of at a crossroads. I have always been a financially smart person. My credit is good. I don't spend money frivolously. I bought a house because it was a wise and good decision that felt so right. And now my life has taken a very different turn. And my house is not something I want/need. And I'm going to have to short sale. Which will kill my credit. Majorly. But it will be okay. There is more to life than great credit. The freedom to live my dreams will come with selling the house. And my dreams don't require good credit.

Funny how decisions that were so led by the Spirit in my life (buying a house, moving to Phoenix) have created a great deal of heartache and trauma for me. All of this is helping me become the person I want to be. And honestly, I love the idea of having the doors of opportunity wide open to me.

When all is said and done, I will have the financial freedom to live my dreams. I will have so many opportunities to do so much good with the money I won't be spending on my mortgage each month. It will all be okay. It always is. Things work out. They never seem to work out the way I plan, but they always work out better than I dreamed for myself.

So here's to the next step of my life. I can't wait to see what is coming next. I'm looking forward to having hind sight and understanding what all of this has taught me.

And I'm looking forward to monumentally decreasing my stress level by selling the house. I will be able to get through without so many breakdowns and tears. Good things will come. And I'm excited to find out what is next!


Ruth said...

You are an amazing person and the best daughter. I'm so proud of you. You are doing so many brave things - things I dreamed about once. I'm glad you have come to a decision about your house. I'm sorry I'm not there to comfort you through the tears and trauma. My prayers are always with you and Heavenly Father knows what you need and loves you. I'm so glad you trust in Him! I love you and your Dad and I are behind you 100 percent.

K.E.N said...

Where will you live? Are you moving away from AZ? Can there be a few more details? I'm glad you are happy with what you're doing, though, that is always the best-even if it is no where near where you thought you would be.

Lani said...

I'm excited for you! I'm glad you love it here despite the heartaches. I wish I were a better cousin/friend and had you over more often. Let's do it again soon!